• sorry I was away, will make a post on why soon

First post to love-shyness

Hello everyone,

I grew up a love-shy man. I took a real beating from females starting at age 10. My mother was a "hidden" alcoholic (she didnt drink until 5 PM) and also have one younger brother whom I had to protect from my mothers insane behavoirs. I couldnt even speak with my female classmates, back then in shcool through collage.

I am heterosexual man, BTW if that make any difference. My first crush was at age 11 in sixth grade. Couldn't talk with her, at all. She passed away at 44 years
of age due to colon cancer. She had a husband and two girl-children. I hope that one day, when I die I will be able to see her in the afterlife (yes, I believe in God).

The Shadow